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Name: meg
Country: United States
State: Arkansas
Gender: Female
Interests: DELTA ZETA, SAI, cello, school, my friends, my sisters, biking, training for races and marathons, hangin' with the homies.
Expertise: laughing loudly. yeah, that about covers it.
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
1/24/2003
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| So, all my Ouachitonian friends are graduating soon. Oy. How weird is this. Of course, i'm late graduating (what's new). Strangely, I feel as though I'm graduating next week too. I don't know why. I guess I'm mentally ready. I can tell I'm mentally ready. I have the worst cast of senioritis we've seen in years.
I love scrubs. I really do. Curse me for being super random, but I love them. Zach Braff is super cool.
And I like Imogen Heap a lot more lately. Not like I ever didn't, it's just the feelings are stronger now. I swear, she sings to my soul and she gets me. Thank you Jade for giving me her album. woot for that one.
Wedding dresses. Sarah's got one and it's awesome. It looks hot. Her wedding is gonna be sooo fun! It's in my backyard and it's gonna be gorgeous and then they'll go have a great honeymoon in memphis.
i gave blood yesterday and the lady (not my stick-er) forgot to reset my machine so they took out too much blood. I was so tired all day. Oy vey. I swear I could hardly move. I was completely pitiful.
I'm a DZ alum and it's weird. It's over and that's strange. It doesn't feel like it should be, but I'm glad for the transition. I'm ready to stop paying bills.
I need to study now for my final in an hour (see? Senioritis hits again) so I'm gonna go.
Rhisty and Jade, we so need to talk. Sorry I've been shady. Just give me a couple days until these stupid finals are over. grrr. | | |
| It's amazing to me how, even after almost 22 years, my mother can make me more angry/frustrated and hurt better than anyone else on the planet. How is that freaking possible? My day can be going great, and here she comes. I wish it didn't matter so much to me.
ugh.
On a happy note, I love the family I take care of. The kids are great, the mom is great (I hardly see the dad, so who cares, but he's cool too) and I just have the best time with them. They make me happy. And I swear, those kids share my blood now.
AAAAAAHHHHHHH!! BIG NEWS! I'm graduating in december. Woah, I'm freaking out a little bit here. Real life is going to start, and I don't think I'm ready yet. Just thought i'd let y'all know. | | |
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i'm in the AZ, which is lovely, but I'm coming back tomorrow. Very sad about that. But, a relationship was sewn back together while I have been over here, so that is wonderful.
Another subject. Are things supposed to be this hard? I wish they weren't. I guess they are and I guess it's normal. I can't wait to not be stressed out to the max to see how I normalize. I bet I will be a better person when that time comes. Maybe I should just sign up for full-fledged 5th year senior-dom and then maybe I'll be able to relax.
I wish everything didn't come at once. Even though it's been three weeks, I still feel like I'm about to fall apart at the seams. This is selfish, but I almost wish he could have waited until after school, just so I could have some respite and not feel like I'm about to collapse all the time.
Gramma and Grandpa and John and I have played Texas Rummy for two days straight, and it's been wonderful. I got the tar beat out of me the first time around, but I've bounced back and got 'em all. So there. ;)
My auntie and uncle got a house down here this week and sold their house in WA last week, so they'll be moving 1000 miles closer to me within the month. I haven't ever seen them on a constant basis, so hopefully this is a change for the good.
well, now that it's late, I'm going to attempt to go to sleep. I can't believe it, but my grandma is still doing the dishes. Yeesh. I'm gonna help her now. | | |
| Well, it has officially started.
Yesterday evening he asked that communion be brought to him (a huge deal).
Last night he was placed back in ICU.
This morning he was put on the vent.
We'll see where this goes, but I'm pretty sure I know already. | | |
| I cannot explain fully in words how I feel.
Nauseated. Hopeless. Frustrated. Pathless. Stuck.
He's dying, and the hospital won't care for him. They don't care. We know he's dying. He's been that way
for 3 years.
She's sick of it, and it's probably killing her too, now. I think she secretly wishes he'd get on with it so she
could have a life again without worrying about him all the time.
And he's still sick and stuck in his ways and won't change to fix himself. He just locks himself in his room
and tries to escape from the world he can't leave.
And it is killing her. And it's killing him too. They are both dying because he won't change and they don't know
what to do.
And she doesn't have a life anymore because she is suffocated by his presence.
My poor family. All are sick and cannot get well. I do not have high hopes for this year as of yet. I wish John and I could escape, except we have no money to escape with. That's a problem.
Will it ever change? Maybe. But probably not until someone dies.
Perfect. | | |
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